Wondering how she is feeling now after the whole incident happened.Read peifang's blog and i totally agree with her.The sistership all of us once had will never be the same again.Laughing and giggling,was it from the bottom of our hearts or were we just trying to make each other comfortable like how we used to do it?But honestly,things will never ever be the same again,and i mean never.I really wonder how are you after this happened,and how are you feeling.I dare not pluck the courage to talk to you because after all it was all my fault in the first place,i should have told you earlier right from the start.I AM REALLY SORRY.Like what peifang said,i really wish we could reverse back to secondary school where everything used to be so simple and funny yet nice,but its totally impossible and even now kuanli is leaving for canada soon i wonder how will i react when i see her leaving.Most probably is i will shed tears =(.I really wanna let you all know that i really do cherish this friendship alot but i know we won't be as close as before,because after all i let you down first and i am super remorseful until now.I don't know whether will you ever get to read this but i really wish that things did not turn out like that and we all go back to square one.I just wanna let you know that i really do cherish this friendship alot and i hope at least we will not turn to strangers or even those HI-BYE kinda friends.I hope we will at least talk and not feel awakard when we see each other i really do.So i hope everything will turn out fine as time pass on.Anyway today i quarrelled with ben and it's quite heated.The way he flares up frightens me alot and we talk for so long and because of me he missed going to his auntie's house.I cried alot because it was my fault but i am really not good enough for you my dear.I really am not.I can make you laugh but most of the times its always you being hurt and heartbroken and it's always my fault.Honestly speaking,things have been working out pretty fine so far,and i don't know how long will we last but i just wanna let you know that i am really thankful for everything you did for me (=. Regarding school,it's been pretty fine too and i really enjoy xanthe and joot's company alot,i am thankful that i found these 2 close friends whom i really can talk too and click well with (=.So yar i shall update till here i really wish everything will turn out fine and i will be as jovial and lively like how i use to be not like now.Stress,sad,disappointed.This is not the real me,i really hope all will turn out fine and that is the only thing i can wish for.
I'm putting on alot of weight too!! i shall go on a diet from tomorrow onwards!!FRUITS FRUITS FRUITS only here i come (=
