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Many things happened,but yeah shall not brood over it, because things happen for a reason.Recently there were many ups and downs.I wanna dedicate this post to you i hope you really understand ok ?
To whom it maybe concernced,
Tried once, failed once. Tried twice failed twice. Tried thrice and as usual failed the third time. I am still not ready getting into one especially a long distance one.I don't believe in one,To me,a long distance relationship is one that as long as both parties are not in the same area and even if they were in the same country yet different parts,it is still considered LDR.I have my studies to priortise as i told you before and i can't let anything affect this.I know that you and me know what we are doing but my dear it is time to move on because i am really not ready to settle down yet and get committed at all.
As much as i love to see both of us together for you really gave me sweet memories and made me laugh like hell, but for the fact that we are so far apart,and you are always feeling insecure and i definitely will feel insecure too and also for the fact that i and you have our studies to concentrate on because without a proper education, we can't get a stable job.This is about being practical and realistical in society.So please do realise that this won't be fruitful.
I won't say that i do not have feelings for you at all,because right from the start you know where you stand even though i don't say it out and also because what you did have moved me alot and yes that every little action just made me feel so touched.If i continue this with you, i will just make you feel hurt more because i will become very bochup and in the end back to square one for i want my freedom and a no strings attached thing.
I'm only 18 my dear and you are 19, i dont wanna get tied down yet, i still wanna enjoy and do many things which i previously could not achieve and with all these, even if you were to come down to look for me, so what does it really change or should i say what will it change? will it make any difference? Sad to say no because of the determination of wanting to study and not getting tied down yet, and yeah i reckon i will have time for you,because i do not even have time for myself now.
Let's just sum it up that it is impossible between the both of us for now i wanna concentrate on my studies and i think you should do the same thing too, if we are meant to be together we will be ok my dear? But yeah to let you know that when we were together my feelings for you were real...take care and i hope you know what i am trying to say...(:
Because for now michelle just wants to enjoy and study and DANCE take care people and hopefully you understand what i'm trying to put across to you.
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